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Posted by JuneSSantos - December 24th, 2023


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Yo, what's up!

I've written a blog post on my website (and yes, I'm back to updating that) about 2023, recapping everything that happened on it, and giving some thanks to a few people in there, if by any chance you're interested, go give a check on RootPain.com, my website, or just click the link below, my website is very cool, I promise!


Either way, happy decemberween

I'll see you next year!


https://rootpain.com/blog/pages/personal/junes2023recap.html


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Posted by JuneSSantos - December 15th, 2023


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THAT'S RIGHT FOOL, I'M BACK WITH MORE

I HAVE A NEW COOL UPDATE

NEW SECTION, NEW CHRISTMAS THEME, NEW THINGS(???)

IT'S REALLY FUCKING COOL AND YOU SHOULD CHECK IT OUT

CHECK RootPain.com AND LEAVE A MESSAGE ON THE GUESTBOOK NOW NOW NOWWW

https://rootpain.com/


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Posted by JuneSSantos - November 4th, 2023


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It's really hard to know what to say at times like these

I haven't been exactly active in here per se, I have been around, interacting here and there, liking art, maybe a comment or another, but that's about it. So when I got the notification that I was selected to be the user of the day, it blew my fucking mind.


I know User Of The Day is mostly random, but I do feel like in a way, it's deserved

I've been around here for quite a while, even before this current account was made, I've been sticking with NG for my whole life, and after getting my first frontpage with the last art piece I've made, getting User Of The Day almost feels like closing the book with one last trophy, it feels pretty good.


I have to thank everyone that has supported me through these years, and the friends I've made on this community

I've met some of the nicest and coolest people out there, and I'm lucky to be friends with so many cool and talented people, and I don't think I'd be where I am if not for them.


But on a side note...

Where have I been? Didn't I tell everyone I'd be more active and that I was working on some things on the background?


For a while, I was. I was slowly chipping away one of my projects I've been working for years now, one of my webcomics that's been sitting on the concepting and refinement phases for quite some time now, for almost a decade at this point, it was supposed to enter the actual production phase, and I was even planning on getting some help with backgrounds or art with a few people, but then, a lot happened, and it made working on anything incredibly painful, and eventually, I'd slowly lose that drive to work on it or anything, and eventually I just stopped


And while on this hiatus, I started to think a lot of what I wanted for me and my future

I still liked some aspects of art, and creating is still fun in lots of ways, but at the same time, it's not something that exactly brings me joy. I'd spend 5 to 6 hours on a single piece, and I'd either make something that simply did not satisfy me, or when I'd be finished, I'd feel good about it for about a few days, until looking back into what I've made and feel bad about it later.

I always felt like despite my love for art, I wasn't really made for it, if that makes any sense

But then I slowly started to interact with other communities outside of my own group, I've started to see the current state of the art world/art community is, and everything about it genuinely disgusted me.

The way people would only "befriend" you if you had numbers or something to be leeched from, with a lot of them not wanting "friends", but only "mutuals", ways to expand their circles and boost their numbers, indepednently of the fact that they like each other or not. The way some people are constantly imposing what's good, what's right, and how you should do things on your art, even though these exact same people are responsible for creating some of the most boring and forgettable creations out there, to the point it's not even worth shitting on, this constantly chasing of trends and numbers, and how the art world is devolving, disgusted me to my very core, and it made me reconsider if I really wanted to be part of something like this, to live in a world where I can't trust anyone, because I can't tell if they like me, or if they want to leech from me, and I didn't, so I just ended up giving up on the whole art thing, and for months now, a lot of the files and projects I had are sitting on hold, and they'll very likely stay unfinished, maybe I'll release some of them in the future, and I haven't touched any art programs for quite a while now, with the last time I've had an art break like that being back in 2018, where I would only touch something art related two years later, somewhere around 2020


It doesn't mean I can't work on things anymore, in fact, some of my friends did invite me to work with them on their own cartoons and creations, and you might even see me make a cameo here and there, but my interest to participate on creating and being part of the art community is dead. One of the few reasons why I've pursued art for as long as I did, was the aspect that I'd be able to meet new people and make new friends, and with that incentive gone, I don't see why I should bother.


A lot of my art has been archived, and maybe in the future, I'll republish it again, but for my creations, this is it for now.


And the main reason why I've been so sad has mostly been a private matter

Not naming any names, but someone I liked a lot has hurted me a lot lately, and I'm still not okay with it

Ironically, I've connected and reconnected with a lot of people because of this whole ordeal, but I still feel defeated because of one person, and I haven't been taking it well


It's not that I don't love them anymore, but it feels like they keep running away from compromise

We try to talk things out, but we never seem to see each other eye to eye

They told me things that left me bleeding really badly, to the point I keep remembering about them on a daily basis, and it always makes me feel like complete shit

We keep running in circles, they promise me they'll do something, they promise me they'll show that I can trust them, but I'm left here, bleeding, waiting for them to take any sort of attitude, and it's hard to not feel like they're sitting here, waiting, hoping for me to forget about these promises so they can have things their ways, but I don't, and I won't forget it.


I still talk to them from time to time, and I still like them a lot, but every time we talk, it always feels like there's something holding us back from just putting this all behind us

I want to forgive them and move past everything, but when they can't even honor their word, when they keep pretending there's nothing wrong, it's hard for me to. I want to forgive them, but when they insist on trying to keep the problem around, instead of dealing with it like promised, it's nigh impossible for me to forgive them, specially with all of the things they've said to me, and even if they didn't mean it, it still leaves me hurting, these things echo to me on a daily basis, and it makes me feel miserable every day


It hurts to look at someone you still clearly love, and feel bad about it at every time, it makes me want to cry, because I still want to believe there's hope, but at the same time, everything is pointing towards the worst, and I'm just waiting here until things finally break, either because they're done, or because I won't be able to carry on any further

I still want to believe on this, but I'd be lying if things weren't looking grim


So, that's it for me?

For now, yes.


Does that mean I'm gone for good?

Fuck no, have you ever seen me?

People hate me, and a lot of them tried to take me down from time to time, but that never works, because at one point, I always come back, either because something sparked on me again, or out of spite, because I won't let people celebrate my downfall and sit here and just be okay with it.


But for now, I don't know what to do, so I'm just resting my case, focusing on fixing and improving my life before trying to tackle big things again, and despite the fact things are looking grim, I do have hope that something good will come, one way or the other


I will be back, either you or I, like it or not

Thanks for all of the support, and for being so nice to me through these years, even when I completely did not deserve it


I won't promise I'll make up for it, but I'll sure as hell try

I will see you when I see you.


-June S. Sai (A.K.A RootPain)


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Posted by JuneSSantos - August 10th, 2023


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I updated a few pages, improved optimization and how the code is handled between multiple pages

And added more fanart and people to the fanart page


Anyhow, give it a check, byeee!

https://rootpain.com/index.html


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Posted by JuneSSantos - August 5th, 2023


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https://rootpain.com/downloads/pages/games/littlefighter2.html


Yes, I'm finally updating this thing again

And currently I'm implementing new sections at the Downloads Section, and today I'm bringing you a new game I'm particularly fond of, Little Fighter 2


It's a pretty good game, and you should definitely try it

But the main point is; I'm back, baby


Either way, give it a check, please

See you soon.


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Posted by JuneSSantos - July 28th, 2023


Kept you waitin' huh?


It's been a while since I've done one of these, but that's mostly because my life is a tad boring at certain points

But man, this month has been anything but


First of all, I turned 22 on July 3rd

We had a barbecue at my work, and it was pretty fun, but that's mostly it, not much has changed besides that


Second, I've been back to doing art, and somehow, I've been doing really well

In fact, I've been fucking killing it all things considered

One day I just decided to pick up my pen and tablet again, and BAM, complete artstyle change, and somehow I'm

making cool looking shit


I've made this piece based on a song I've been listening religiously recently, and I thought it fitted with my character pretty well, so I made an edgy piece, both as a tribute to the song, and as an experiment with this new artstyle I'm experimenting, and I really like how this piece ended up looking


And today, I made this, which is a piece to showcase the design for one of my characters of my yet-to-be-released webcomic, The Elemental Twins, which is something that's been in the makings for about a decade now, and although I initially planned to abandon this piece entirely since I wasn't digging how it was shaping up, I hercules'd through it, and the end result really satisfies me. I'm glad I actually sat down to finish it, this, alongside the piece I've made yesterday are some of the coolest things I've made thus far, and I want to continue to try and make more of these, and if possible, draw the rest of the Twins aswell, and get the webcomic finally out there instead of just leaving it on the backburner/concept hell, so yeah, big plans all around


Lastly, I'm working with my good friend @yokucasper in making a game on Godot, with him handling the sprites and most of the art, while I handle things like UI designs and the programming part itself

Although things have slowed down considerably due to both him and me having awful weeks recently, I'm still slowly but surely getting back to it, and I do have some huge plans for it for the future


The image below is just a concept art, but you can get the idea.

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Either way, wasn't the best of months, in actuality, it's been incredibly stressful, but I do admit, lots of good came from it aswell, and I don't plan to slow down any time soon (despite the fact every time I say this, I somehow dissapear every time without fail) so if you're a huge fan of RootPain (AKA June S. Sai (AKA Big Whiskey)) you'll probably have a good time


If you don't like me, or just outright hate me, too bad

You'll still see my face everywhere.


And before closing this, I gotta say; It's always fun to be around here, I've made some really good friends, made some stuff that some people seem to enjoy a ton, and it makes me pretty happy that people still haven't given up hopes on NG aswell, despite how bleak things may look from time to time


Keep doing your thing, and keep yourself real, not only for everyone else, but also yourself

If something is truly your passion, don't let the mediocrity of the world taint it.


Keep killing it

I'll see you around.


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Posted by JuneSSantos - June 24th, 2023


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A few years ago, around 2010, I made my first Newgrounds account, and I mostly made it to be able to earn medals on the games I liked, I wasn't ever expecting to ever be a part of the community all things considered, mostly due to the fact I was an annoying kid with barely to nothing to offer, artistically or otherwise, but I always wondered if I could get featured on the site like all of the artists I used to look up to did


In 2020, I decided to rejoin Newgrounds once again

Now cut to 2023, and I've finally got that fabled frontpage I've dreamed for so long, but most importantly, I've met so many friends in here, I got to know pretty much everyone in here, and now I'm an actual part of the community that (for the most part) a lot of people seem genuinely fond of having around


I can't state how happy I am to have rejoined Newgrounds when I had the chance back in 2020

A lot of the reasons why my life is significantly better than it was back then was thanks for a lot of the people I met in here, some that I even used to be a big fan of before I actually had the chance to meet them personally (looking at you @staggernight), and the friends I've made in here helped me to stir me up in the right directions I should have been going to from the get go


@octo Introduced me to most of the people in here, and his first website inspired me to make my own, and in general, he's always been a good friend to me


@joe-mega was always a good friend to me, and a lot of his support towards my website endeavors made me want to continue to improve and pursuit to improve them


@staggernight has been a sincerely good friend through all the way, and the amount of nights we spent playing Dragon Ball FighterZ and making KaioKen jokes is something I always remember fondly off


and @beatumpop for just being around, ever since meeting him a year ago, I legitimately felt a light lit up inside me like I haven't felt in years, and this was enough to drive me to push myself harder just a little bit more, even when I was I sure I should have just given up


There's tons of others friends I haven't mentioned either, but you all know who you are, and you're all great as well

And for those who kept an eye on my things, either my website, or my Newgrounds, you're cool too


I'll forever be grateful for what this site and the people in here have done for me


But what now?

What's left for big me? (I'm not little anymore lol)


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RootPain.com

That's what's left


All things considered, this is my passion project that's been building up for years now


Ever since I first found out about The Mystical Forest Zone when I was younger, I was obsessed with making

a website of my own as cool as TMFZ was, and recently, I got the chance to do just that


Being the spiritual successor of my first website, JuneSSai.com, RootPain.com is essentially a refined and fully realized version of everything I was trying to accomplish with my first website, and I think I did a pretty good job with it


I do plan on implementing more stuff into my website, like more downloads for free games, backgrounds, fonts, programs and other things, and I've implemented the Art Corner recently, and with the Blog Section being very near completion, it probably won't take long for me to do the same with the rest of the stuff too


It's not a profitable site, but I like making it, and if in the future, my website makes enough impact on someone to make them think about it years later, and make them go "I want to do that some day" just like The Mystical Forest Zone did to me back in the day, then it was all worth it


And lastly, I also want to say "I'm sorry" to a lot of the people that were unfortunate enough to have first interacted me a while ago around 2020-2021


I used to be very bitter about myself and my works, and instead of actually improving myself, I'd try to go out of my way to start shit with other people and make them feel bad instead by "fake criticizing" things others make, trying to pass bitterness off as criticism, and that's always a pathetic thing to do, there's a right way to do criticism, and this is not one of them, and I'm sorry, and I hope if we stumble upon each other again, that we might meet under better circumstances


Either way, that's it for the most part

I told you all I never dissapear for good, and you'd see from me again

If you hate that or not, that's up to you, tho


Stay strong, we'll see each other soon.


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Posted by JuneSSantos - June 16th, 2023


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RootPain is coming back

Brace yourselves, you all will hate it.


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Posted by JuneSSantos - April 19th, 2023


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https://rootpain.com/downloads/pages/doomwads/rootpain.html


You thought it was over? No, there's always more.

I've finished the Downloads seciton and I plan to implement more things into the site soon, I was just taking a long break and I've been really tired and busy over work, but I'm definitely still working on it


Give it a check if you can, please, it's a cool website.

https://rootpain.com/downloads/pages/doomwads/rootpain.html


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Posted by JuneSSantos - April 11th, 2023


Holy shit, how long have I gone without doing one of these in here?

I usually leave these for my website, but since I'm still reimplementing the Blog Section into it, I'll stick this into Newgrounds for now


We're only four months into 2023, but it already feels like an eternity, because so much has happened in such a small amount of time, and fortunately, most of it being really good things


First of all; I've got a job!

That's right, at the beginning of this year, I started living by myself, although I didn't had a job to afford much, so I had to preserve money as much as I could so I could realistically survive and pay bills, but somewhere around mid january I've started working full time on a newspaper factory, and my life quality has improved dramatically, not only because being able to support for yourself is everything, but also over the fact that the work itself is very easy and fun, with a lot of the people in there being really nice and fun to work with, they're so nice that at times they cover my shift so I can sleep for a while at work


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The second thing that really is cementing this year as a really good one aswell; I've finally got around to redesign my website


It took me months, but I've finally went ahead and did it, and the results couldn't make me happier


Although my first website was pretty decent visually, structurally and code-wise, it was pretty dogshit, and I took my time to make things not only look and function better, but to also get the chance to make things look a little bit more professional now since I've honed my skills a lot ever since my first website, and the way things came out makes me so proud, it's one of the few things that I made that I can say is objectively good, and although updates are slow as of now since I'm taking a breather due to work being incredibly demanding of me as of right now since I have to cover one of my coworkers shift over him being on vacation, there's still more to come, and I haven't given up on updating it at all, so please, give it a check if you can, and maybe even support me while you're ahead!

https://rootpain.com/


And third, which is the most recent thing; The Newgrounds Dreamcast Collab!


...Alright, it's the Kill Moushley collab, but we thought naming it The Dreamcast Collab just for it to be five minutes of a meme mouse getting killed would be funny


My entry on that collab was rushed and weak, no doubt, but just being able to participate on something like this made me so happy

Being around on Discord while we saw each other working on our entries was legitimately really fun, and seeing everything come together and seeing how people reacted to it was so exciting

We didn't expect much reaction since it's just a joke collab, but the response towards it couldn't have been better.

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The collab was incredibly successful, and a lot of the people seemed to enjoy what we did, even if some people got really angry at it just because it existed, but going through all the comments, seeing people confused, angry, happy and overall just enjoying it for what it was left me so happy, and some people even enjoyed my admitelly weak bit, and it really made my week


I'm still getting new people following my account, and knowing that someone out there enjoyed this little thing I made with some friends makes me really happy


In general, I'm really lucky to have so many good friends around me, and I'm really happy on how I find myself in life right now despite the turbulence here and there


A while ago, I was friends with people that didn't even like me, people that really couldn't give less of a shit of how I'd find myself in if they hadn't something to leech out of me, and now, I'm friends with a lot of fun and talented people that I could always count with if push came to shove, a while ago, I couldn't even bring myself to do anything, neither draw, code, or anything of sorts, but seeing my friends work and having the chance at working alongside them gave me a burst of inspiration that I hadn't had in a while, with me eventually making my website, then going back to art, and now, even attempting animation (even though my entry was barely animated lmaoooo), all thanks for the few people that hang around with me


My life isn't the best, not by a long shot, but I've reached a point in life in which I can say confidently; I'm happy

Good friends, semi-decent living conditions, being completely independent, and having a creative drive again, it's all I could ask for.


I'll keep making art, I'll keep updating my website, I'll try to make new things, and I'll even try my hands at animation again, eventually, but I just wanted to take a moment to say thanks to everybody, including this entire community


Either you're new, or old here, the people in here have been nothing but cool to me, even when I absolutely didn't deserve it, and the fact I had the chance to know and befriend so many of you makes me extremely happy, and I wouldn't have it any other way


Either way, I'll go sleep for a little bit more before I have to head to work

And despite everything, this has been a pretty good week, and thus far, a pretty good year

So let's try and keep it that way


It's been real fun, and I hope to see you all again soon

Check my website, it's real good, I promise you

And thank you.


Big Winner

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